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I was an essayist and didn’t know it

Sitting back and reviewing my own life, I’ve realized I’ve wasted a lot of time not only living with my mother and worrying about her reactions I’ve actually discovered that in the past I had a lot of talent for writing essays that I didn’t know about.

How I came to this conclusion is simple; I remember reading and researching a lot of subjects and writing up long reports of what I’ve found and how I feel about it to forums (outside of the writing category) and doing a good job of it.  Readers found my posts informative and this lead me to become one of the most popular members on two particular sites; one being a spiritual and occultist site and the other being a gardening and survival site. 

I didn’t get paid for these opinions, didn’t think it was anything great; but after researching what an essayist actually is I realized this is what I was when I was living with my mum, bored to tears writing up anything from cosmological theory, theological history, social sciences, bio-science and what was on TV last night, thinking that I was simply wasting my time – I was, but I could have wasted it in a more productive way, by being a paid essayist.

I’ve actually found out my love for writing up information and opinions on my favorite subjects can and have been profitable for many writers in the past; how I sell these essays, I haven’t a clue but I love doing this, I love sharing my knowledge with other people amongst writing fiction as well.

With this being said, I will start to write up essays here on my blog to show you what I used to be like and to also ask the question “am I an essayist or is there something I’m missing in those posts”?

Thank you for reading and your comments are necessary for my fine tuning.

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Scrabble helps writer’s block!

I know I’ve already touched on this subject before, but there are other ways I stop myself from coming up against a brick wall when it comes to writing.  It’s a method of which involves what I call “constructive procrastination”.

What I do is I sit back and I enjoy a good game of online scrabble or words with friends, any word game really, and any words my opponent gets, I write them down on a list and I use them for poems or ideas for short stories.  For those who don’t play many word games, I sometimes notice there are themes that occur in games of scrabble unwittingly, you can sometimes see whole stories with what crops up, it can be amazing brain-storming.

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My Blogroll

Just found out what a blogroll can do (well four hours ago), so I’ve been fiddling around with mine all day, seriously, since 10am and the time is currently 14:14 ooh synchronization (spiritualists will like that).

I’ve added some links to my friend Erin Cooper’s artwork places, she’s all over the place right now and I had to e-mail her about a couple of places because she and I are so alike, she forgets username and passwords for some places, so I had to ask her if she remembered them before sending you to view them, because she tries to sell her stuff, bless her.

I also added one of my old and almost forgotten sites from DeviantArt, I am not very good at digital art, I am best with hand made stuff, but those are the things I knew how to put online, there’s a lot the world is missing out on.  I have to try and get back into the habit of doodling again.

Some of my stuff in regards to sketch art may look familiar to a lot of people because I tried to copy by eye some pictures that you can find in many “How-to draw” books, but I have in-cooperated those with either my own work or other copy by eyes to form an interesting picture.  My first ever attempt at a dragon on the DeviantArt page is the only example of this online.

You can see the picture by clicking the link below; personally I think it’s good, but I may have made the dragons chest look like it has a tumor or something, because it’s a little bloated looking in my opinion, I can see how I can thin it a bit, but I think I’ve lost the actual picture amongst my paper hoard.  Shock Horror!

My first ever dragon attempt

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taboos, cliche and offense

I’ve known some people who reckon they’ve got some very good ideas for a book, but, they’re afraid of offending someone with what seems to be socially taboo subjects.  These subjects range from, religion bashing, racism, a sexual orientation the author personally doesn’t have; a cliche idea of a group of people and even in some cases they’re afraid of the dialogue being wrong, not to mention class discrimination, bullying and abuse.  If that’s the main theme of your story, then why be afraid of the response?  You cannot please everybody all of the time, you are bound to offend somebody with something you may not have even thought of.

I have read books where if I read more than ten swear words before the second chapter I hang the book up if the character isn’t known for some kind of aggression earlier on.  That offends me, to the majority of the public it seems, they aren’t bothered by this kind of writing, but I am.

I have read books where they’ve done mindless violence to an animal that serves no purpose to the book, I sometimes reluctantly read on, but I am offended nonetheless.  I understand some people are offended of hunting, although I hate animal violence; I am not opposing hunting if it is for food and food only!

Some people seem to think abuse and neglect autobiographies should be removed from the shelves, I personally don’t.  For me, it helps me to overcome the abuse I experienced as a child, in some ways it can also help me get into the mind of my abusers.  It also helps me to respect the welfare more, I used to feel they’ve failed me, they had in a way, but it wasn’t entirely their fault, they tried their hardest for me, but they couldn’t gather enough evidence to pull me from that situation.  When I ask the people opposing these books why they’re against them, they believe that it might give abusers ideas of what to do to the children they’re in contact with, it could help them cover things up more by learning things from the abused child’s perspectives.  This is a serious concern, but I truly believe it helps victims more than it creates more predators.

From what I know of my abusers and from those I’ve read about, abuse comes spontaneously and compulsively, almost without plan, abusers seem to be opportunists rather than planners.

People who neglect do tend to plan on neglecting the child sometimes, or may have mental health problems where they didn’t realize or mean to neglect their child, in my case, my mother was too busy to actually sit back and think “Oh my God, my daughter is genuinely sick, got to take her to the doctors”, my mother was a career woman who truly believed that everybody was trying to hold her back and that I was hungry for attention and needed to be stamped on so I don’t get in her way, so she did medically neglect me to the extent I lost all the hearing in my right ear and needed emergency surgery to prevent an infection going into the brain, it was eating its way through the bone.  There were other medical problem she chose to ignore, for example, losing her temper and picking me up wrong and dropping me head first onto a concrete floor, a huge lump appeared on my head and I complained of not seeing properly and being dizzy and vomiting, she ignored me as making a scene to embarrass her in front of a friend and sent me to bed, for weeks I could barely see until a teacher became frustrated that I wasn’t understanding anything in class and seemed to have severely gone backwards since the previous term, drastically so and felt maybe I needed my eyes tested.  It turned out, I needed very strong glasses, I blame the accident on it, I was fine before and the reason why it took so long to pick up?  My mother wouldn’t let me go back to school until the bump had completely gone, claiming I caught a nasty virus and I had to look after myself at home all day whilst she and dad worked, this was before the welfare got called in.

This aside, all in all, there is a big difference between abuse and neglect, which isn’t widely known.  I was unlucky enough to be the victim of both but I won’t add much more detail than that here I have another blog which I will be started up soon, as a type of therapy for me and I’ll update you on that site another day.

So are these books wrong?  Are they right?  I can’t say, but for me they help me, for others it might be detrimental, but who are we to judge?

Salman Rushdie is considered a living legend in literature, yet his books sparked him to become the victim of a fatwa.  Yet he didn’t mean to bring about a negative response to what he hoped would be viewed as a book of comedy.  Some people just don’t have a sense of humor when it comes to their religion, but we can’t help that.  I we cannot control people; we cannot control whether they like our writing or not, so why sit back and worry?  Yes, OK, you could become the next literary victim of a fatwa or you could be murdered by a reader who hates you, you can’t sit back wondering what if, should I, shan’t I, because you’ll go crazy.  Just write and leave the criticism to the readers, you will be criticized a lot, but you will also be praised a lot too, you can’t tell which way the table will turn.

If you’re book has your characters having lesbian sex between two aliens whilst laughing their heads off at all our worlds religion and leaders and cultures and you individually pick out some examples to put in your book, you will offend a lot of people from those categories, but will that make it a bad book?  No, it will still be humorous, to those outside of the categories or those within who actually have a sense of humor.  So write it!

More later…

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Writer’s block or procrastination?

Or they give you different sides to every story that you can't decide to follow.

Or they give you different sides to every story that you can’t decide to follow.

I was reading about writers block the other day and it amused me to think that people actually believe in that as an excuse for not doing any writing work.  For me, it’s just an excuse to procrastinate and I was glad to find that I wasn’t the only person who felt this is a procrastinator’s key reason for doing nothing, ascribblersdreams also felt that it is from people who’ll never actually become what they aspire to be, because they do not think of ways to help themselves out of the blockages.  http://ascribblersdreams.wordpress.com/2013/04/16/the-one-about-writers-block/

You are either a writer or you’re not.  A writer writes because they love to, they can’t help it, it’s their life’s breath, you always find ways around doing what you want to if it’s your passion, no amount of blocks will prevent that.  A passionate writer usually has hundreds of ideas going at once, those ideas can totally overtake your brain and put it into creative overload, that for a time can prevent you from doing your work effectively, but there are ways around that.  You can create ways in which helps you to decide what you’re going to do at the time.  For me, I write small ideas down on a piece of paper, screw the paper up into a ball and put them amongst hundreds of others inside a box, I randomly pick one out during one of my creative overloads to help me focus.

How do I choose what ideas go into that box?  Simple, I think up random scenarios and hope they work, mostly they fail, or lose confidence in what I’ve done and throw it away – but that’s the problem with us writers, we never think we’re any good, that’s why you must ignore your inner critic and share your work with people at creative writing classes, they’ll be brutally honest with you about what you’ve done.  Friends and family, bless them, they’re there to support you no matter how rubbish you are, so ignore them.

Another thing, don’t concentrate on earning money with your stories, remember, you’re writing because you love it, and writers don’t get a lot of money generally, it’s a very competitive market, so if that’s your incentive give up writing or give up the idea of money.

For me, it’s far easier to write poetry and songs than actual stories, but that’s a cop out on my part.  I have been asked once to allow a poem of mine to be published into anthology for new poets, but because I was the worlds worst procrastinator, I didn’t read my e-mail in time to accept and send my poem to the actual publisher.  I used to read my e-mails about once a month, simply because I never thought anything good would be posted to me and I joined a poetry website, added a few poems thinking they’re complete rubbish (but obviously they weren’t… well at least one wasn’t) so I’ve learned a valuable lesson there and ever since I am paranoid about reading my emails at least twice a day ever since!

Learn from your mistakes, check your e-mails everyday for that elusive mail and more importantly, juggle your ideas if you’re the type to get “writer’s block”.

As AScribblersDreams says, don’t be the posh word for lazy !

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