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Carnival of Lost Souls

This is NOT my personal work http://www.amazon.co.uk/Carnival-Lost-Souls-Nox-Arcana/dp/B000FOT9EE/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&qid=1436560945&sr=8-4&keywords=Nox+Arcana

A lot of my work comes about because of the thoughts that come to my mind when I listen to certain music; my inspiration changes with each kind of music I listen to, this is why I love instrumental music, particularly that from Nox Arcana.
I have all of their albums, they are essential for me to work effectively. Never before has a band affected me in such a way as Nox Arcana. Their music is exactly the kind of atmosphere I need to set my brain into for my work in fantasy and horror writing and art.

I might very well review each album or song separately someday, but the most listened to album for me is this one – Carnival of Lost Souls.

The amount of fantasy horror I’ve thought of. I have even thought about a comic series because of this music, this along with (sorry, something not Nox Arcana related) = The Honky Tonk Merry-go-round by Patsy Cline. Oh the things I have dreamt, thank you Nox Arcana, very much for this one. Johnny Depp is going to love you all the more if he ever reads my stuff and found out his new nightmares were inspired by you. *insert evil laugh here*.

Since I lost Cubase many moons ago, my computer isn’t hooked up with music composing software anymore (and I can’t read or write music, but I can play by ear and compose – with the software). My music was similar to Nox Arcana, that’s why I love it so much. I think the band must be within my soul group or something? Anyway, once I figured out how to configure my old Microsoft XP files onto my new computer (perhaps in Neverwhere) I will load up my old music and share it. Otherwise, if I really am in Neverwhere with that then my old music has been lost in the ethers of time forever. *Insert forlorn pierrot here*.

My creativity really is controlled by the type of music that’s around me at the time. In the times of no music, I tend to write flatly and that’s only suitable when I am writing non-fiction or essays.

Now being deaf, I rely heavily on vibrations, lip-reading and my two hearing aids and I am not looking forward to the day that my consultant said is in the near future, that I will lose my hearing altogether. Unfortunately at the time this was said to me, the consultant in question told me that there is nothing they can do to repair my hearing if the worst case scenario crops up, thankfully I know someone in the ENT department abroad who says that’s utter tosh. So fingers crossed that I will never lose my hearing completely.

I don’t know what I would do without my Nox Arcana!

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It’s Christmas time

The bells of Christmas are chiming the hour of waking to presents galore

Children awaking and presents they’re shaking, wrapping paper all over the floor

It’s Christmas time, a time of fun

Look what Santa’s magic has spun

It’s Christmas time

A wonderful day

Listen to the children laugh and play

It’s Christmas time look at the feast

Roasting a magnificent beast

With décor chiming all around

Listen to the festive sounds

Its Christmas time a wonderful day, look around you what do you say?

It’s Christmas time, a time for peace

Sitting by the fire in a soft lovely fleece

We all will love our Christmas day

A time where everybody will play

We will sing to our hearts content and nonchalantly we’ll invent

Games and happiness galore, makes Christmas time never a bore

It’s Christmas time, a time of fun

Look what Santa’s magic has spun

It’s Christmas time

A wonderful day

Listen to the children laugh and play

It’s Christmas time look at the feast

Roasting a magnificent beast

 

 

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you mortal fool

Nightmares lurking in the shadows

Midnight creeping up the stairs

A cold chill comes to tap your shoulder

What are you here for?

You don’t know what danger I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

You don’t know who or what I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

Here I am, I’m cute as apple pie

One step closer, you’re gonna die

I’ve got cute fangs, cute fangs like incy wincy spider

Come to me and I will bite ya

You don’t know what danger I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

You don’t know who or what I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

Oh baby, baby what did I say?

Why do you bleed in such a way?

Oh look at your life it’s gone away

Deary me couldn’t you stay?

You don’t know what danger I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

You don’t know who or what I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

You don’t know what danger I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

You don’t know who or what I am

You mortal fool

You awful fool

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Crystallaphones and plans

My plans for after Christmas are to find distance or online courses to learn how to read music and actually start becoming proficient in a musical instrument that’s not piano/keyboard based; this is because my interest in song writing and composing is becoming almost unbearable to ignore, particularly as I don’t have anyone in my life who’ll cause me stress anymore (other than a 3yr old son, but he’s sweet and easily worked around). 

I have found a new instrument that takes my interest and I hope I am lucky enough to do a part exchange with my electric guitar to get one, but I’ve heard to find one even in a music shop is rare, the instrument is… a crystallaphone, or as some people will know it as a glass xylophone; however it’s very likely that I’ll end up with a left handed electric guitar as a replacement (as I didn’t take my disability into consideration – my left hand has short tendons).

I am still heavily interested in watercolor painting and sketching, but I have put that on a back burner since I’ve been ill for the last three weeks, also the house needs organizing as I need to prepare a workspace for the art and the music I would like to take up.  I am slowly introducing myself to small chunks of work a week, roughly two hours a time, three days a week to settle into it because I am regularly ill, hence the unemployment I am in, I can’t hold a job down, not even a voluntary placement these days.  The mind and heart is willing but the body will not comply.

I need to find something that I can do from home but does not require me to use the telephone (not because I am unsocial, but because I have fluctuate hearing and regular ear infections that even an amplified phone is useless with) and despite this being the age of texting, not a lot of professionals or customers like communicating with staff via text only and most forget your hearing problems because when they talk to you face to face and you respond (because you’re an excellent lip reader) they think oh it’s not so bad.

Yes I know it’s strange that a person who has regular hearing problems wants to compose music, but there’s been others out there who have done it proficiently, so why can’t I?  I believe I am right in stating that Beethoven was stone deaf wasn’t he?  And one of the bee gees, he was like me, partially hearing, wasn’t he? And their music is great, isn’t it?

I don’t want to be a singer, I couldn’t take the commitment there because I never know when I am going to be sick and most of my sickness is based around practically all the aspects of the ear nose and throat, which doesn’t help for a singing life.  When I was younger I trained in opera but after the age of 12 I couldn’t sing it regularly enough to be considered talented in it, because I developed regular mastoid infections which needed regular operations etc. and singing became quite painful for me literally.

So with that said, I am trying my best to make myself a creative life and I hope that when things take off I find people who are sympathetic to those who have health problems and will help me work around them in a non-stressful manner.

 

 

 

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Devil’s tango 2

Gingerly I danced with the devil

Cautiously I gave him my heart

Defiantly I played roulette with the devil

Now he is tearing my soul apart

 

That’s what happens when you play with fire

That’s what happens when you’re lead by desire

This is what happens when you’re toying with lust

Soon my soul will turn to dust dust dust

 

Just look at me, look at me

I am just a fragment of the former me

I cannot lie, I’d rather die

But no mortal hears my desperate cries

 

Look at me, look at me

I am just a shell of what I used to be

Look at me, look at me

Won’t someone help? 

Set me free?

This is a song I wrote tonight, I still haven’t learned how to write music yet and I do have the music in mind for this song and I think it would do brilliantly with a tango theme.  I would love to become a songwriter and composer but at the moment I really can’t afford the lessons I need to learn how to read and write music effectively enough to sell.

It’s a shame really because I often get songs and music in my head, more than I do novels and poems etc. 

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Just two scars

Sometimes I thought about writing a whole theater production or musical, as I imagine music and lyrics so much, but until I learn how to play music without playing by ear I fear this is a dream doomed to never become reality. 

This song below is something I’ve planned on doing as a musical; it’s about vampires and every paragraph skips back and forth between two characters, a vampire lady and the son of a pastor.

Originally when writing this song I thought it was going to become the love of an angel and a demon, fighting each other but then falling madly and deeply in love with each other, but as all you other writers out there knows; your work dictates to you, you don’t dictate to it, and so as it flowed on it became vampiric, not a struggle between good and evil like first planned.

Hope you enjoy it – remember it’s to be sung, not read as poetry, but I don’t expect you to know the tune it’s supposed to be sang to.  In all honesty, it was supposed to be a poem too, but it never turned out that way, I got something at the back of my head as background music which resembled something Manowar would have.

 

There fire in my soul, there’s a fire in my heart tonight

Tonight, there’s a place where the darkness fights the light

Tonight, tonight, our love is a place that beckons for a fight

With you in my arms, I feel your charms

Happy with me, you’re restless without me

You’re an angel faced fool

I’ve watched how you’ve drooled

As I shimmy around the nightclub

Tooled by my quest to capture you

You’re easy prey

The devil said it and now I say it too

You’re easy prey

A purity installed heart, I’ll tear you apart

Hear what I say

I am bad for you, oh guess what I’m gonna do

I’ll lead you astray

To a place you’ve never dreamed

I will do it this way

Make your heart mine and on a feast of blood I’ll dine

And take your bouquet

And lay it across your coffin

Knowing you’ll be mine forever

Don’t scream

 

I lay in confusion, wondering what happened

I feel very different, where am I?

 

You are with me, my sweet little angel

I have given you a gift

You and I are children of the night, dear

We are vampires, in case it isn’t clear

 Please, have no fear

 

This can’t be true, I refuse to believe it

Let me out of this place, your lies are a disgrace

 

Listen to me, it is the truth

A mirror will prove it

Don’t be so uncouth

 

I don’t believe it

It’s true

I see no reflection

 

It’s true, now that you’ve seen it

You know that forever you’ll have youth

 

These are the trials and tribulations of creating new, excitations

How do you view my revelations?

Do you want this too?

Do you want to be renewed?

Vampires of the night we are

Fashioned by hunger

Our sun is millions of stars

 

Take my hand and become like us

All it takes is two scars

 

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to part you recommended

The below text is a song I wrote, but I haven’t written the music yet; it’s jazz, I really like how it sounds in my head, to me the words make sense by the way it should be sung, but unfortunately I can’t sing the lyrics on a mic to post it so you get a fair idea because I’ve had a throat virus since February and it’s damaged my voice a little, but hopefully soon I can get composing the music (if I remember it) and it hopefully the words get sung properly by me so it’s good enough to sell.

I love you and you love me

How did I know this would end in tragedy?

So, there we was walking hand in hand

You’re the best boy I ever knew in this whole and massive land

So happy I am to be with you

I didn’t know it would end, I had no clue

You lead me astray and then it ended

When looking at the ocean

To part you recommended

That we’d part our ways and looking on at waves

I thought it couldn’t be true, but it was, our love is through woo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo

Babe, our love has ended

Now what am I to do?

Woo hoo hoo hoo hoo

As I saw you leaving my heart it started grieving, wo hoo hoo hey

I couldn’t believe that it could end in such a way

The sun was setting over the horizon

I was lonely and my face was dampened with tears and the memories of the years we had together

WOO HOO HOO HOO HOO YEAH YEAH

I was looking back at your footsteps in the golden sand

A voice in the back of my head said he is not a man

Wo ho ho hey

Find yourself someone new, that’s what you have to do

Yeah yeah yeah

He left but I’m fine, so fine ha ha hine

I will find someone kind hey hey hey

I am stronger than that oh yea

I won’t cry anymore tears I swear

I let those memories hold me strong

So to you I don’t belong, but that’s OK

You’re not perfect anyway

So wrapped myself around my shawl

Heading home before the nightfall

Oh yeah heh heh yeah

I didn’t know it would end, I had no clue

You lead me astray and then it ended

When looking at the ocean

To part you recommended

That we’d part our ways and looking on at waves

I thought it couldn’t be true, but it was, our love is through

And I don’t care

No I don’t care

Not at all h-all

I’ll keep strong h-h-h-ong, yeah

 

 

 

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Piano lessons

Is it possible for someone who has a disabled/unusable baby finger to find a piano tutor who’ll know how to work around that problem?

I have played the piano since I was five years old (at my grandmother’s house), but never done so properly, meaning, I don’t work well with both hands, I also can’t read music.  I am self taught, play by ear, I want to learn how to read and write the music, so I can learn other complex songs quicker and so I can become a songwriter more effectively.

I’ve always wanted to write songs, but I don’t know how to read music.  I understand I can learn how to read music without learning the piano, but I want to do both.  I want to learn how to use my hands properly, despite the loss of use in the baby finger of the left hand.

When I was younger I was given a copy of cu-base and this helped me compose some tunes, but then I was without a computer for a while and my brother nicked the cu-based and sold it, ever since I’ve always wanted to do songwriting.  I just lacked the courage to go to college about it, because I can’t play the piano professionally, or how people expect you to, also my left hand is slow and needs speed training.

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