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Crystallaphones and plans

My plans for after Christmas are to find distance or online courses to learn how to read music and actually start becoming proficient in a musical instrument that’s not piano/keyboard based; this is because my interest in song writing and composing is becoming almost unbearable to ignore, particularly as I don’t have anyone in my life who’ll cause me stress anymore (other than a 3yr old son, but he’s sweet and easily worked around). 

I have found a new instrument that takes my interest and I hope I am lucky enough to do a part exchange with my electric guitar to get one, but I’ve heard to find one even in a music shop is rare, the instrument is… a crystallaphone, or as some people will know it as a glass xylophone; however it’s very likely that I’ll end up with a left handed electric guitar as a replacement (as I didn’t take my disability into consideration – my left hand has short tendons).

I am still heavily interested in watercolor painting and sketching, but I have put that on a back burner since I’ve been ill for the last three weeks, also the house needs organizing as I need to prepare a workspace for the art and the music I would like to take up.  I am slowly introducing myself to small chunks of work a week, roughly two hours a time, three days a week to settle into it because I am regularly ill, hence the unemployment I am in, I can’t hold a job down, not even a voluntary placement these days.  The mind and heart is willing but the body will not comply.

I need to find something that I can do from home but does not require me to use the telephone (not because I am unsocial, but because I have fluctuate hearing and regular ear infections that even an amplified phone is useless with) and despite this being the age of texting, not a lot of professionals or customers like communicating with staff via text only and most forget your hearing problems because when they talk to you face to face and you respond (because you’re an excellent lip reader) they think oh it’s not so bad.

Yes I know it’s strange that a person who has regular hearing problems wants to compose music, but there’s been others out there who have done it proficiently, so why can’t I?  I believe I am right in stating that Beethoven was stone deaf wasn’t he?  And one of the bee gees, he was like me, partially hearing, wasn’t he? And their music is great, isn’t it?

I don’t want to be a singer, I couldn’t take the commitment there because I never know when I am going to be sick and most of my sickness is based around practically all the aspects of the ear nose and throat, which doesn’t help for a singing life.  When I was younger I trained in opera but after the age of 12 I couldn’t sing it regularly enough to be considered talented in it, because I developed regular mastoid infections which needed regular operations etc. and singing became quite painful for me literally.

So with that said, I am trying my best to make myself a creative life and I hope that when things take off I find people who are sympathetic to those who have health problems and will help me work around them in a non-stressful manner.

 

 

 

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I am committed to my self

There are dreams I have forgotten and places I’m meant to go

But didn’t go there, I go with the flow

The flow takes me anywhere, anywhere it knows

It takes me into happiness or terror I suppose

People say it’s not a structure

You need that in your life

But I can’t bare normality

It’s rigid and boredom runs rife

I need the flow of nature to guide me in my way

I will not fall into categories, me I shall stay

I won’t lose my sense of self

And become a uniformed girl

I will travel to know myself and this vast wide world

I will not allow myself to become blemished by the ones

Who say I am not normal and normality I should succumb to

I will not fall into patterns and I will not submit

I will only flow with life and to myself I will commit

With nature as my guide and friend, I’ll know of love and play

I will be guided by her majesty in each and every way

I will become who I was meant to be and not follow the rules of man

And if I had a choice, I’ll chose to do it all again, amen.

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Words Have Power

The words we use have profound meanings to our fellow men

They can create him or destroy him and bring his life to end

Be careful of the words you choose, be mindful of your listener

For his will shall be affected after he has heard your whisper

Do you want to create or destroy?

Think carefully now of your power

I always think it’s best to unfold words as beautiful as a flower

I don’t like to hurt or cheat, I live to create

If my words have hurt you, I’m sorry for my mistake

Words have power, use them well, and use them all for love

For those who use words to harm, will be punished from above

 

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